Today was the first day of my new healthy life. I have forever been a yo-yo dieter, doing what I needed to in order to fit that one amazing outfit. Needless to say, lots of ups and downs in the last 3.5 years has caused my scale to do the same thing...go up and down....many times. I have been in a horrific accident that made me look at the things that REALLY matter in life. I have graduated from college. I have had a baby. I have had my first real teaching job. These are the BIG things within a bunch of other little things. I have changed A LOT in the last 3.5 years
One thing that hasn't changed? My relationship with food. I am and have always been an emotional eater. Broke up with a boyfriend in H.S.? Lets eat ice cream and curse his name. Got the lead role in a show? Lets celebrate with food so rich you feel like a queen. pregnancy emotions...cravings...medications...all these things have contributed to my weight. Everything comes down to this: I am NOT in control when it comes to food! Today, that changed.
I have tried almost EVERY diet out there. Jenny Craig, weight watchers (for one day), medifast, the 3 day diet, only eating celery sticks and cottage cheese, everything!!! Through all of these, I have learned many valuable tools like portion control, learning my eating triggers, timing, etc. I know the tricks, but applying them has always been hard. This is why I am beginning my new journey with a tried and true diet...a combination of brands of high-protein low-fat diet foods. Before the "Big Bang", I lost 30 lbs with it and kept it off until after the accident where depression and medication helped me gain it back. This time is different. This time, I have EXERCISE!!!
I hated P.E. in school. Now, I get up and go to the gym on purpose! I am addicted to BodyPump, a Les Mills class (google it...SO AWESOME). I modify the exercises to fit my still somewhat disabled body, and I have seen a vast improvement in strength. Now, to combine the eating habits and the exercise should be very exciting.
This first post is designed to show you where I am at. I will not post my weight, because to me (someone that has been classified "big boned" by at least 5 doctors and orthopedic surgeons), the number on the scale doesn't matter. According to the BMI chart (which does NOT take into account bone structure), for my height, I should be no more than 121 lbs. HA! Never GONNA HAPPEN! I would look so sickly. I refuse to get that small. I have a size goal of 10 in pants and medium in tops. I will be posting pics along the way to share my accomplishments.
Hopefully this blog will help me in the area of accountability. I know that if I have to post updates to the blog (and subsequently FB), I don't wanna post "Well, I screwed up and had the cheeseburger". Nope, not my style. So friends, please follow this blog. Help me help myself. Maybe I have a friend who is dealing with a similar struggle and this could give them the extra "oomph" they need to get going. I hope it can be inspirational for others and me.